Wednesday, April 21, 2010

the Great Metaphor IV

I had to put some thought into choosing what to write about this time around... I don't particularly want to write about ultimate dejection like the first post, but then again that's life: you win and you lose, you put out the effort and get nothing back; another day everything goes perfectly. Then there are days when it's just such a tough time but you keep plodding on and you do get something out of it... when somebody actually notices you're laying it all out, proving yourself... when you can come out of it and look back and truly feel accomplished, whether it be a private satisfaction or if there be some public reward. I have to say though, there is nothing like a mix of the two.

I had arrived late, because of school, to join up with the team in Costa Rica. We had actually been afforded time ahead of the Olympic qualifying tournament to go and have a couple warm-up games. I arrived having had a fever the past 3 days. Fabulous. It seemed to go away though after traveling but I was of course run down. Made it through practices well enough. But I had to do it in the friendly game to earn my starting spot for the real thing.

The thing about any team, whether that team be a sport, your friends, or your family, you need to take a moment sometimes to see if what you're doing benefits the group, or your ego. For me that moment came in the friendly match during an injury stoppage. I knew I was doing good, but the moment we had to stop playing that long... talk about adrenalin draining away.... Ok so let me just quietly wonder away over here and throw up. It was a great moment hehehe. Truly once in a lifetime! I have no idea if anyone noticed, nobody ever said a word. But from there I knew I had it in me to push on and not let down the team. And the next game I started on the field, not on the bench, so I guess Coach noticed SOMEthing.....

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